All in the last month, I’ve watched with amazement as many of my visualizations have manifested in my reality. I found myself standing in the middle of a scene I had pictured many times, straight off one of my vision boards, and I was struck by the realization that my feelings in that moment matched exactly the ones I had previously conjured in my imagination. And so in the reality of it, it didn’t feel any different. It was almost anticlimactical, which I suppose supports the theory that the manifestation isn’t as exciting as the anticipation of receiving.
I haven’t written much in the last month simply because it seemed there was nothing more to say on this topic than “learn to love yourself and everything else falls into place.” I’ve forgotten what it feels like not to get that, to be searching for answers and wondering when the stuff is going to appear. Always a new level, just like Gameboy and Playstation. Now I’ve latched onto Limitlessness, Gary Renard and A Course in Miracles, The Work by Byron Katie, and various related material. Anyway. I watched myself over the last couple of years while I created money and things and people and events in my life, and made notes so that I would always be able to manifest anything I want in a way that works for me.
Here’s my truth - I didn’t have perfect days, I didn’t visualize consistently, I didn’t set goals and take action, I wasn’t always in a good mood, and I had arguments and impure thoughts. In other words, I was pretty normal and definitely not perfect at all the things the teachers out there say I need to be perfect at doing. What I did do was concentrate on me and my feelings. I kept a daily gratitude journal, in which I also included simple requests for things I wanted. I did lots of things to feel good - inundated myself with uplifting quotes, inspiring newsletters, pictures, vision boards, music, movies, a little yoga, some kirtan. I cut the vampires out of my life, period. I didn’t watch the news or listen to people complain. I read lots of books on how to love myself and practiced the exercises. I listened to audio tapes and did energy work including chakra cleansing. I joined a web group where I would be held to weekly conference calls. I figured out a way to talk to my Higher Self or God or whatever you want to call it. And I practiced surrendering, even though I didn’t know what that meant. Just by saying the words, it eventually sunk in. I knew that the point was to get into that “feel good vibration” where miracles happen, and I did understand that I had to fall in love with myself (remember Lisa Nichols from The Secret.) More than goal-setting, more than taking action, more than visualizing, loving me was what brought my desires to life.
And after all that, I find that there are so many more things I can do to experience that stream of well-being. Always a new level, but still the same goal - self-love. Everything else is in place now and there’s nothing left to do but love it.
I so agree with you on many of your comments. I, too have watched many of my desires manifest. Yet, I, too, am not always doing what some teachers say we must do every single day. I don’t do anything every single day…..except wake up, get up, eat, take care of personal hygiene…..and love myself and the way that I do things. I am not quick, I am rather slow. I am not regimented. I’m rather haphazard. I am not driven. I am led by my thoughts of the day. Yes, I have some deadlines to meet, but not many. When the timing is right, it’ll get done. When I am centered, and calm, yet passionate, it gets done quickly and it gets done right.
Though I agree that the anticipation of receiving is quite stimulating, the stimulation of obtaining that desired end result is still very exciting to me. It is an emotional pat on the back to keep on track. It’s that feeling that I DO know what I’m doing. With a sense of satifaction, I breathe easy and take a relaxed plunge towards my next set of desires. So, for me, there is still the difference between the anticipation of the manifestation and the actual manifestation itself. In that, we can differ…yet still love ourselves. And I can still love reading your blog.
Actually, Deborah, I agree with you that the manifestation of desired results is a big pat on the back and a cue to move forward. I mean to convey that my feelings from manifesting match quite nicely my feelings from visualizing, offering me proof that the whole process works. I appreciate your comments, and hope that in spite of our agreement you will still love reading my blog.